dis - order - 2009 (i guess)
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sin and bone,
thin and alone.
transparency of a daughter,
tracing paper skeletal.
cheeks angular and sharp.
paper shredder ribs.
tendons taut instrument strings,
muscles invisible to the marrow.
jaundiced teeth falling
out of dying gums.
i wish i were your pallid stomach
wish i were the food you won’t ingest
were your meticulous slices of carrot
and celery and lettuce and evaporated milk
your perennial water bottle
circus-freak, mirror eyes
i will be your ritual, i will lose your battle
be your proxy life, your decay
i will be food at your funeral
be your coffin
be the tears of family, friends who
didn’t know how or what to do
collect their sorrow for you, to keep for you
i will be you